It’ll Make Sense When You’re Older

This school year has been so great so far (can’t believe I’m on year #5!). I have left behind blogging  for now to save time to do non-work related things, but I would like to share this moment from my classroom with you all. I am teaching a “Reading Podcasts” class, which is a hit with my students. We have listened to Radiolab and This American Life, and the kids get time to explore podcasts they want to listen to. We are learning a lot and having a great time together. This week they’ll be writing letters to their former selves about what in their lives they’ve learned so far. Here is mine:

Hello former self!

I’m writing this letter because you just listened to “It’ll Make Sense When You’re Older” by This American Life. I’m writing this letter to inform you that it’s okay to ask questions about life, and it’s okay to not know the answers all the time (or get angry when other people don’t give you answers). I know that you like to know things, so I’m going to let you in on some things that you don’t know at the age of 16—ten years from now.


The Road to National Board Certification Part 9: Moving On

Hey there, blogging world. For the tense and placement of time to make sense, I started writing this a month ago.

I just said goodbye to the kids today, and boyyyyy did it feel sweet. Don’t get me wrong—I’ll probably be glad to see them in the fall, but we definitely need some time apart.

This is pretty much how I feel:


This final stretch was so, so rough. Like “I don’t know if I can do this one more day, let alone a year” rough. As you can see, I haven’t blogged. I pretty much did everything in my power to not think about teaching, education, etc. when I wasn’t at work. Each week I had a new plan for my life. I resigned each negative thought to “oh well. I won’t be back next year.” And National Board Certification? Meh. 1000 bucks down the drain, but to hell if I’m spending any more time on it.

It was excruciating—even if I was trying to dull the pain of whatever it was pulling me away from teaching (I’m guessing it’s all the factors that make up burn-out), it still made me feel guilty/bad teacher/deviant. I know you all can relate. Anyone who does something for an extended amount of time can relate.

Unlike most schools where graduation is pretty much confirmed by the beginning of the last quarter as long as seniors sit there catatonically absorbing those classes they put off until the end, our program requires seniors to be wrapping up everything they need to, whether it’s the research paper they have to work on, or extra work they have to do to finish their points, or passing our math proficiency test. As a family teacher (which is like a home-base teacher that advocates for a group of students), it is stressful. Part of getting a student graduated is on me and my colleagues, and it requires time and energy in addition to teaching our classes and going to meetings. I stayed with one of my students until 10 pm one night to try to get her to pass a math test, and while she didn’t get to walk at graduation, she finished her requirements the next week and got her diploma. The hard work paid off, but I was in such a funk that I didn’t even think about what primary role I had in this student’s success (attending a ‘no-nonsense’ charter school before coming to ours, she most likely would have not graduated this year). Another student of mine almost didn’t graduate, then did, primarily because of me. I think this is just sinking in, a month and a half later.

Amidst all of this, the NB puts their portfolio submissions due May 18th, right in the middle of the end of the school year craziness. I could have avoided this by not procrastinating, of course. But I didn’t. I turned my submission in three hours before the cutoff. I used my own personal time to take the school day off to finish it. I waffled between not submitting it, but in the end I didn’t have it in me to quit. Many thanks to my husband for giving me the straight talk via Shia Labeouf:

If you’ve never seen that, you’re welcome.

A few weeks later, I took Component 1. Besides being shuffled around like livestock at the testing center by the Pearson Overlords, it was pretty uneventful. I “studied.” I woke up early and made sure to eat breakfast. I sat in a chair for three hours and clicked what I thought were the best answers. I wrote essays to what I figured the National Board wanted to hear. Then I went home and watched Damages.


(and Broad City)

I’ll know in December if I did well enough to keep my score, and I really hope I don’t have to take it again.

I’m finishing up writing this  mid-summer, unsure of how I feel about taking another year on again. Celebrations: I am done with the TEACH grant, and am hoping for some loan forgiveness after this year for teaching for five years. 

In about a month, I’ll start up again with the blogging thing, unless I hit some inspiration. Until then, I’m relishing every restorative day of summer spent with good friends and family, good food, outdoor things, and of course—my dog. If there’s one gift of teaching, it is summer break and all of the opportunities for rekindling relationships that get doused in the gasoline of the school year (did that sound too melodramatic?) Here’s an artsy dramatic picture of my dog to illustrate:



YA Lit: Book Review of Before I Fall, by Lauren Oliver

Last Saturday, I wandered into the book aisle in the grocery store, searching for something to keep me preoccupied for the evening as my husband was working overnight—all in an effort to avoid devolving into a Netflix binge. The pickins were slim, (so many Harlequin romance books. Not my thing.) but my eyes fell on Before I Fall, by Lauren Oliver. I read the back and right away knew it was something I’d like— with the words ‘death’ and an endorsement from Jay Asher, author of Thirteen Reasons Why, I was sold!

I gave it three stars on Goodreads because it did take me awhile to get into. There are a lot of high school cliches (popular girl in a relationship with insensitive boy, division between the haves and have-nots, annoying but well-meaning parents), but those start to melt into the background once the conflict begins to unfold. True to YA lit form, your heart feels for the loss the characters experience, but seeing the growth in Sam, the protagonist, is well worth it. I think that many of my students would enjoy reading this book, as it explores the question—“if you know you’re going to die, how do you spend your last day? And what happens when it keeps repeating?”

It’s a quick read and definitely worthwhile to highlight effects of bullying, as this is a major theme throughout. And guess what? It’s being made into a movie this year, so read it before you see it!



Being an Introverted Teacher in an Overwhelmingly Extroverted Profession


Collaborative structures.

Team-based learning.

Parent meetings.

Group work.

Are you getting anxious just thinking about these words? I am.

These past few weeks have been very trying on me, to the point where I considered not teaching. Just…stopping. And doing what? I don’t know.


Guest Post on Cult of Pedagogy

Happy Wednesday! Sunday, “A Day in the Life of an Alternative High School Teacher” went up on Cult of Pedagogy, which is one of my favorite teaching blogs/sites. Eight months ago I contacted Jennifer Gonzalez, asking to post and share about the school where I teach. She was so kind to let me write for the site. It is my first guest post, and I can truly say that it was a great experience! I have already heard questions and comments from various educators/education fans–even a former student. The internet is such an interesting place sometimes.

I’d love for you to check out the post and Cult of Pedagogy!





The Road to National Board Certification Part 8: Using Goals to Refocus

Raise your hand if you find yourself wandering through a chaotic, scattered, metaphysical crisis lately! Haha!

We all are. And if you’re not, you’re missing out.

While National Board updates are slow-moving, (I have to take Component 1 potentially in April, and the National Board email fairies haven’t sent whatever Pearson generated (grrr) code I’m supposed to have #stillhateyoupearson) I thought I’d share one way that this certification process is keeping the ball rolling on my year.

As a recovering perfectionist, I swing from bursts of productivity and motivation to ‘I am doing absolutely nothing tonight, even if it makes me stressed out tomorrow.’ Some may call it procrastination. At this point, I tend to have no proper judgment at all. What should I teach?  Let’s just eat cotton candy outside all week because IT’S SPRINGTIME.*

The solution? Enter: GOALS.

National Board is giving me a mechanism to keep it all in perspective.

I am a huge proponent for teachers to set professional goals because ultimately, they will transfer to the classroom. Not every single piece of work you do has to be directly related to what you’re teaching right now, at this moment. It’s why I write this blog and why I decided to go for certification. My goal is to be fully certified by December 2017. It’s lofty, I know. But it helps me put my day-to-day in perspective. I’m not just working at a job, but I’m building a career that will ultimately make me a more effective teacher. Don’t we all have days where we feel like we’re spinning our wheels? National Board has helped me take my teaching and look at it systematically. If I felt like a lesson went poorly, I need to look at my evidence to see if that is really what happened. Sometimes I surprise myself. Sometimes I don’t.

I am continuing to use the Architecture of Teaching model that I’ve got to show evidence for in my student work as part of the Component 2 that I’m currently writing. In the flurry of a day, I usually try to take some time (a few minutes, even) and look at what we did in class. Collect it, observe it, evaluate it. There is something calming about grounding my head in what is there and not what I think is there. Then, I can make adjustments to my goals for my students and for myself.

If you can identify with feeling stagnant at this time of year and want to take a step to overcome it, I highly suggest you consider starting NB certification. About this time last year I was just contemplating it, and now I’m all in. The requirements are that you’ve been teaching for three years and you’re full-time.


(*update: we didn’t eat cotton candy).



Letting Students Give Me Writing Feedback

I would have to say my ‘writing roots’ didn’t really get started until college. I got the writing bug in college, alongside some inspiring teachers-turned-professors who were passionate about helping their students inspire their students. In that environment, writing was democratic—anyone could do it, anyone could teach it, and everyone is a writer. Not all educators have that mentality. I’ve spoken to quite a few who would not call themselves writers, even though they have things to say and stories to tell.

As I bounce along the road of teaching, one concept that stays with me is to repetitively tell my students, “You are writers. You’re writing. That makes you a writer.” It is important for them to see themselves in that way, because the mindset that what they have to say isn’t worth the simple act of writing it down is ridiculous. Recently, I’ve decided that instead of me giving them the feedback, that I would let them give me the feedback. I should have developed a pretty thick skin by now, right?  I thought that I was going to hear, “It’s good. I wouldn’t change it.” That is not what I heard (well, from most of them).



We need books!

My class is reading Zeitoun, by Dave Eggers, next session. It’s a fabulous story, controversial, and connects well to what’s been going on with racist comments about Muslim Americans from certain politicians.

I have a Donors Choose page where you can donate and help us out! If you donate by March 2nd with the code EMPOWER, your donation will be doubled!

Click here to see the Donors Choose Page. 

**UPDATE: The Project is FUNDED!! Less than a day. You guys rock.



The Road to National Board Certification Part 7: 11 Ways to Talk Yourself Out of the Dark Place

What is it about February that makes us deplore it? Is it the long-haul to spring break? The fact that Valentine’s Day somehow makes teenagers spontaneously reenact Days of Our Lives scenes at all hours of the school day? It may be the shortest month, but to teachers, it is definitely the longest. And it always makes me question my career: I call it, The Dark Place. 

I’ve written about this before and how to prepare for the storm. My February is no exception. I prepare for it like the best of them, but it still doesn’t matter. I will never love February. I am working on my NB Certification and my students and I cannot afford to check out. Therefore, in a quest to make this profession sustainable, I present to you:

11 Ways to Talk Yourself Out of The Dark Place

  1. Come up with the most menial list and feel proud of it 

My to-do list gets ridiculous. “Plan out the rest of the week” is ALWAYS at the top. I never get that far, honestly. I just don’t. Something more urgent always comes up. So, I make a menial list. “Empty the small trash by my desk into the big trash can” is perfect. Really. Get something done and feel good about it.

2. Fight the urge to sit

I have an adjustable desk, so I raised it to a standing desk this week. If I sit down while kids are working I get into a rut of sitting. Being sedentary does no one any good, and it really diminishes the interactions I have with my kids. If you don’t have an adjustable desk, then remove your chair from your desk. (But not like this).

3. Don’t play into people’s negative B.S. 

Negativity is catchy. I am great at catching negativity because of my charming yet cynical personality (so my husband says). One word: EMAILS. Delete those passive aggressive missives like they have the plague.


Snow Day Musings

After being told we never have snow days in Denver, this has been proven wrong TWICE this year!

Being stuck inside prompted me to do two things:

1. Work on the various projects I don’t get to tackle during the week (National Board, library building, grant applying)

2. Plan my spring break and summer!

Last week, I had a little existential breakdown about teaching and learning; particularly about the ‘sit in the classroom and learn’ model. It doesn’t always work too well for who’s in my classroom. It feels stagnant and one-dimensional. I have quite a few boys in my classes this session and am struggling to make the curriculum relevant to them. I also feel like there is a lot of untapped potential in getting students writing and interacting with their community! A colleague and I are going to be starting a library here at our school, and I’m excited about the possibilities that will have for students to read, share, and connect with the community in that way.

So, today I’m making myself more aware about what opportunities there are in getting students out of the classroom and into the ‘real world’ in a way that goes beyond the linear field trip model (not that field trips aren’t wonderful!) I can’t believe how many grants are available that we don’t know about as teachers! I will hopefully be able to compile a list and share ’em on here soon. Teaching Traveling has been an inspiration so far, if you’ve got the travel bug and want to live vicariously through others🙂

Dreaming back to student teaching in Belize and planning big things for the summer! Where should I go, guys?


Enjoy the snow day, Denver area teachers! The perks of this job are for real🙂